I got married to a wealthy Indian merchant who is also a Scholar (a specialist in a given branch of knowledge). He brought me to his country. It was an Indian community and I had to get used to the culture, no matter how difficult it is. I saw myself studying their songs, their language; but it seems, I never really learned.
The struggle was severe because I had to leave everything for him --- my home, my loved ones and even my real self. The sacrifice was indeed enormous.
My husband showered me with material things. Specially jewelry. The problem is that he is always away. It seems, he loves his culture, his business and his desire to explore deeper things more than he loves me. I find it weird that I never saw his face in the vision. I didn't see any kids, which may mean we never had kids.
He would always entrust me to his servants. He's got a kin who was so nice to me. He would take me around while riding an elephant. He would always amuse me. Eventually, our feelings got developed. I decided to stay away from him because I want to stay faithful to my husband --- keeping the faith in my heart that he will return to shower me with attention.
I got so lonely because the culture was so difficult for me and I always felt alone --- a foreigner far away from home and far away from my husband most of the time. Being free spirited, I had a hard time getting used to the restrictions. I also felt that every man in the area desires me and every woman hates me. They love and envy my skin at the same time.
The last thing I saw was that everyone is screaming because I jumped from a high place. I must have committed suicide. If I survived or not, I don't know anymore. I never saw what happened after that fall. I didn't even know if my husband came back for me and if he eventually realized that he could be very successful in whatever he is doing but it is still true love that matters most.
"There is only one true happiness in life --- to love and be loved in return. I could have lasted in that foreign land; if only you were there with me."
| Jade Martin is a Professional Tarot Reader, Psychic Advisor and Dream Interpreter from Manila, Philippines. Her years of experience speaks for her reputation. |
