Rape

I need a dream interpretation for my dream. It's about rape. There, I saw myself getting out of a van in a wheeled-chair. I wasn't married and I have no kids but in this dream, I am married, have 5 children and I was dying. My former roommate was there too. She is somehow living with the family and she has been taking care of the kids as they grew up. They told me dinner would be ready soon but I told them I would just stay outside by myself.

My friend appeared next to me and asked me if I am happy with my life. I said, "How can I be happy when I am dying?" She offered me a chance to change it. She took me back to a party where my former roommate had invited me some time ago in real life. We had eaten "magic brownies" and other food which are in pots. Because I couldn't drive, we had decided to find a place to spend the night. A guy came along and had sex with me. I got pregnant immediately.

Then, all of a sudden, I again saw myself and my friend in that party where we've been. We saw and did the same things again. Suddenly, my friend got stoned and I stayed by her side. Then, the guy who had sex with me came along and did rape me. My friend felt guilty because my situation got even worse. Someone, told me that the dog who has licked us at the party was a demon. So, I knocked it down and we tried to escape but as we were leaving, a group of guys jumped into my car and raped both of us. Then, I was back home. But instead of having 5 children, I only have 1, a daughter who is somewhat very much aloof to me. - Anonymous

Dream Interpretation:

Your dream may appear so confusing but it actually reflects some failures or disappointing experiences in the past which you think have been depriving you of happiness now. Things that may have caused you to lose your confidence or may have violated your trust. There maybe things you wish have not happened. People you trusted whom you wish you have not trusted. But then, you lack the power to change anything. Dreams about rape may indicate that someone or something has been violating your self-esteem.

Now, you have skills that you could not use because of this. Sometimes, you can't even think properly. Now, as a result of these incidents, you may now have been a little less affectionate but then, you know that only you could remedy yourself. The dream may also be telling you to evaluate yourself carefully. You might be carrying some grudge with in you that is causing you to feel unhappy and frustrated.